thou shalt not conform when thou could blaze thy own path..

bon voyage

last nite watched lax final season episode, i think, and saw halley (a half manager of the airport lax) saying her last goodbye to her partner (another half manager of lax).

liked her term, "..u dun mess with my runway, i wun mess with urs."

then it showed her goin on her way from the airport. she said goodbye to one of her admirers;
"u r one of the reasons i come to work everyday."

he answered, "u r the only reason i come to work everyday."

then she gave him a kiss and went on her way.

last part showed her best partner (one who's married, messed up, each other harbouring severe case of attraction for one another, but still holding back to his marriage becos of his children, somebody whom she had an affair), reading up her resignation letter, smtg she swore she'd never do (which is y both end up as managers for the airport, thus contrast and clashes of opinions and decisions always happen).

i remembered a part very vividly;

"..u know i am extreme. i want it all or nothing at all. i've sent a copy to the town's mayor.."

i've never felt so connected back then.

for me, her way of life though extreme, she has no regrets of life. she grab on to everything tat's dear to her and make the best outta it. i dun agree w the part she having an affair w a married man who's having his divorce along the way, but then, life does hav a sense of irony; never say never.

i swore i'd never fall for a guy w big lips, and i did.
i say i'd never fall for a childish person, and i did.
i say i'd never work in kl, and i did.
i swore i'd never wear pink, last nite i checked my wardrobe, and i saw some pink stuff in there.

it's time to say bon voyage to a lot of things tis year; silent anguish, lonely frustrations, doppelgangers, short hair, old principles, reckless thoughts, impulsive moves, rainbow connection, idiosyncracies etc etc..

there's some memories worth cherishing; amusing ones, sad ones, good ones, reflectory ones, selfgrowing ones etc etc..

tis year had been a reflectory revelation for me.

i discovered myself as :
* lesser than whom i idealised,
* sometimes better than whom i think i am,
* that my actions reflect whom i am and not my thoughts,
* tat my thoughts give ppl impressions of who i am which is far from truth,
* tat i'm more tactful than i let ppl know,
* tat although i do enjoy some stuff but too much of it will make it routine thus bore me,
* seeing somebody too much is self destructive,
* tat i enjoy exclusivity as much as i enjoy privileges,
* tat i can be whoever i set out myself to be,
* tat i hav many facets which some i love some i hide,
* tat my group of friends varies and i react diff in all the groups,
* tat i cant handle pressure too much or it'll make me feel pukish but i'm sure time and practice will make it feel better,
* tat i enjoy sleeping and self preservation a lot,
* tat family is very important to me though some ppl may think otherwise thus it seems true tat a person's measurement of "a lot" varies from one to another,
* tat i'm a very focus intense person who's a bit vain and love to tease around a lot,
* tat i dun take myself too seriously,
* i amazes myself sometimes.

well, who says tis year is a complete waste! haha..

"treasure is in the eye of the beholder.." - me

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posted by M.E. # 5:52 PM

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