thou shalt not conform when thou could blaze thy own path..
dew drops on the window sills..
today's been a real sleepy working day.
just went to inner secrets at sri hartamas to take a look at the lingerie sale.
had a brief encounter with a friend who's pretty childish by my standard, he came frm my back and gave me one heck of an irritating shoulder massage (i dun like hard shoulder massage btw, i got soft epidermis, and i dun like being touched by just anybody who's not family). shocked the life outta me, n i can see frm me colleagues eyes that he shocked them too with the gesture. then he murmured into me ears that he missed me..i think i dropped a few hair off me arms then. i merely laughed with embarassment at his behaviour and opt to avoid any encounter w him in the future.
then me colls asked me if all my friends do like tat to me or smtg, or trying to take advantage of me. the latter comment denotes their way of thoughts if a guy is too free at hands with a gal. makes me feel embarassed again, angry too that i didnt told him off n not to do tat to me again next time, cos i saw he got 2 female friends who had lunch w him. mayb i'm too nice, hmm..now tat's a thought i need to eliminate. will hav to tell ppl off next time, subtle but menacing at the same time without appearing nasty..hmm..a very tough art to master. *sigh..
i was pissed and msged a friend to releas the pent up emotion, and who knows, he told me to sue the guy who gave me the massage for sexual harrassment n then do it back to him, *sigh..i dun wanna hear all that, i need somebody who'd say "Is it? Darn it, let me kick his butt for u. That darn sob better pray he's got 9 lives to spare..*&^%^%$%#"..now, that's wat i call friend even though at the end of the day we both know it's just talks. If the massage-guy got a black eye or two, well, i'll consider that bonus at the end of the day.
lately i've been bz handling other stuff than me work..mostly sister's uni n other misc applications. sure, a friend of mine told me to let her do her stuff herself..if she can handle her stuff herself, my mum wouldnt ask me to apply it on behalf of her la. it'd b too ez to just kick her into the cold water n let her swim. but she'll get her chance soon enuf. how come i never got a sister who can help me to handle all these petty stuff? then i wouldnt need to worry too much cos i got somebody experience enuf to help me to handle my affairs, more time to do other stuff too. but heck, i'm my own person and eldest sister of em all, wat can i do? since i'm the only person in the family w experience in applying for further academic studies, they r just too happy that i can handle all those w no complaints. i can handle all that man, all i need is somebody who'd tell me that he would b there if i need him for anything, not to give me more advices on letting my sis to be independent, cos i know all that, n she'll get there soon enuf. *deep-breath-n-sigh..
guess knight in shining armour doesnt apply for me in any cases at all, might as well forget bout hoping and depend on myself where at least things would get done my own way and no complaints are extended. guess i'm my own hero, shoulder-to-complain, knight-in-shining-armour all rolled into one. that's y it's always best that u learn how to be a cheerleader to urself, so u can always cheer urself up from any predicament that makes u feel down at the moment, hoping for external resource to cheer u up simple takes up too much time and most of the time, it never really happens. and at the end of the day, u discover u r the only person who u can count on to get u outta there, so u just simple climb outta the hole urself, n start walking away without looking back at the reminiscent of a shadow u left behind.
well, listening to jesse mccartney now, cheesy stuff i know, some might even arched an eyebrow knowing that i'd listen to smtg pop n cheesy like jesse mccartney who's just another pretty boy w a lil voice. not really in the mood to talk to anybody, just in the mood to lie back on me back and listen to smtg lite n ez or empty promises like "take ur sweet time" and "why dont u kiss her" and "because u live". not in the mood for another human interaction, just in the mood to reach home and lay a pat on me pet's messy hair, and knowing that he'd simply bark at me cos he misses me so, and just spend the time watching tv silently w him by my side, or take him out for a walk where i'd just let him lead me wherever he wants to go..just me and him.
tat's one of the simple stuff which i look forward to at the end of the day..
PS : i dun hav a black soul btw, i simply like to make u laugh.
just went to inner secrets at sri hartamas to take a look at the lingerie sale.
had a brief encounter with a friend who's pretty childish by my standard, he came frm my back and gave me one heck of an irritating shoulder massage (i dun like hard shoulder massage btw, i got soft epidermis, and i dun like being touched by just anybody who's not family). shocked the life outta me, n i can see frm me colleagues eyes that he shocked them too with the gesture. then he murmured into me ears that he missed me..i think i dropped a few hair off me arms then. i merely laughed with embarassment at his behaviour and opt to avoid any encounter w him in the future.
then me colls asked me if all my friends do like tat to me or smtg, or trying to take advantage of me. the latter comment denotes their way of thoughts if a guy is too free at hands with a gal. makes me feel embarassed again, angry too that i didnt told him off n not to do tat to me again next time, cos i saw he got 2 female friends who had lunch w him. mayb i'm too nice, hmm..now tat's a thought i need to eliminate. will hav to tell ppl off next time, subtle but menacing at the same time without appearing nasty..hmm..a very tough art to master. *sigh..
i was pissed and msged a friend to releas the pent up emotion, and who knows, he told me to sue the guy who gave me the massage for sexual harrassment n then do it back to him, *sigh..i dun wanna hear all that, i need somebody who'd say "Is it? Darn it, let me kick his butt for u. That darn sob better pray he's got 9 lives to spare..*&^%^%$%#"..now, that's wat i call friend even though at the end of the day we both know it's just talks. If the massage-guy got a black eye or two, well, i'll consider that bonus at the end of the day.
lately i've been bz handling other stuff than me work..mostly sister's uni n other misc applications. sure, a friend of mine told me to let her do her stuff herself..if she can handle her stuff herself, my mum wouldnt ask me to apply it on behalf of her la. it'd b too ez to just kick her into the cold water n let her swim. but she'll get her chance soon enuf. how come i never got a sister who can help me to handle all these petty stuff? then i wouldnt need to worry too much cos i got somebody experience enuf to help me to handle my affairs, more time to do other stuff too. but heck, i'm my own person and eldest sister of em all, wat can i do? since i'm the only person in the family w experience in applying for further academic studies, they r just too happy that i can handle all those w no complaints. i can handle all that man, all i need is somebody who'd tell me that he would b there if i need him for anything, not to give me more advices on letting my sis to be independent, cos i know all that, n she'll get there soon enuf. *deep-breath-n-sigh..
guess knight in shining armour doesnt apply for me in any cases at all, might as well forget bout hoping and depend on myself where at least things would get done my own way and no complaints are extended. guess i'm my own hero, shoulder-to-complain, knight-in-shining-armour all rolled into one. that's y it's always best that u learn how to be a cheerleader to urself, so u can always cheer urself up from any predicament that makes u feel down at the moment, hoping for external resource to cheer u up simple takes up too much time and most of the time, it never really happens. and at the end of the day, u discover u r the only person who u can count on to get u outta there, so u just simple climb outta the hole urself, n start walking away without looking back at the reminiscent of a shadow u left behind.
well, listening to jesse mccartney now, cheesy stuff i know, some might even arched an eyebrow knowing that i'd listen to smtg pop n cheesy like jesse mccartney who's just another pretty boy w a lil voice. not really in the mood to talk to anybody, just in the mood to lie back on me back and listen to smtg lite n ez or empty promises like "take ur sweet time" and "why dont u kiss her" and "because u live". not in the mood for another human interaction, just in the mood to reach home and lay a pat on me pet's messy hair, and knowing that he'd simply bark at me cos he misses me so, and just spend the time watching tv silently w him by my side, or take him out for a walk where i'd just let him lead me wherever he wants to go..just me and him.
tat's one of the simple stuff which i look forward to at the end of the day..
PS : i dun hav a black soul btw, i simply like to make u laugh.
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