thou shalt not conform when thou could blaze thy own path..
Reading Story In Advance Akin to Falling In Love
Sometimes u find urself in a story, sometimes u lost urself in one.
Other times, u scoff it off, saying it's mere fiction, but u can never leave ur eyes off it's cover as u flip through page by page.
Sometimes for me, falling in love with stories is like being bathe in the morn dew, the sun bath it's light upon u, and u smile rite into it's eyes, and u feel nourished being where you are.
Grateful.
Appreciated.
Loved.
Sometimes, u feel as if there's nobody u can relate to, nobody u can talk. But not with stories, u can tell it just about anything. And it would absord as if a long reunited lover thirst from ur love.
I feel inspired by the story from The Fountain, a movie that has yet to come out. Whether the movie brings out the story in it's midst or not, I'm getting the book.
I dun know why, but I feel the book's gonna question everything and anything, putting everything on the table as one separates it, categorise it, put it back in jumble and do it all over again and u get a different thing overall. It's inexplainable. But feels like it opened something in me. Hmm..revelation..darn, it's good to be back.
I think it's time to buy Tolstoy and read it with perspective that I've failed to look at before.
To read The Fountain. It will star Hugh Jackman and Rachel Weisz.
Labels: Poignance
posted by M.E. # 6:04 PM 0 Comments
Committed
Now I can officially say I'm committed and anchored to a place.
No more moving around like a nomad, no more living life as if tomorrow's obsolete, no more throwing away cash like it's nobody's business, now all I got to do is get to the IKEA's sale before everybody else snag all the non-defective furniture.
So basically I'll hav to save enuf to decorate my new investment.
Sonny will pass custody to Thomas as he n my sis part ways, so there goes 2-3 yrs of memories together.
Life is sad, poignant, dramatizing in one way or another, but I guess that's life.
Regrets are for the past, life's short. I have no regrets.
Labels: Poignance
posted by M.E. # 11:28 AM 0 Comments
Odd
U know, it is odd sometimes that we never seem to appreaciate what is familiar to us.
Like tis blogger site which I read, if u read through his blog n all, u'd notice that :
1. He's not local
2. He takes lots of photos of people doing their daily activities.
All these petty little things, things that we do and encounter everyday, things that we missed out for it's simplicity, things that we take for granted, this guy took it and put it on his photo blog as if they are exotic pictures and worthy of a memorable caption for a quote or two.
It's odd that it takes an outsider to appreaciate this daily stuff, and which he takes photos of and seems to find curiosity in everything the native does. And worthy of taken photos of and put in his blog as if they r something worth talking about?
Hmm..why does it takes an outsider to understand the concept of simple appreaciation that we lack in our daily lives?
"Life is a conversation. When we enter it's already going on. We try to catch the drift of it. We exit before it's over." - Kenneth Burke
Like tis blogger site which I read, if u read through his blog n all, u'd notice that :
1. He's not local
2. He takes lots of photos of people doing their daily activities.
All these petty little things, things that we do and encounter everyday, things that we missed out for it's simplicity, things that we take for granted, this guy took it and put it on his photo blog as if they are exotic pictures and worthy of a memorable caption for a quote or two.
It's odd that it takes an outsider to appreaciate this daily stuff, and which he takes photos of and seems to find curiosity in everything the native does. And worthy of taken photos of and put in his blog as if they r something worth talking about?
Hmm..why does it takes an outsider to understand the concept of simple appreaciation that we lack in our daily lives?
Labels: Thoughts
posted by M.E. # 11:27 AM 0 Comments
Hum For Me..
Tribute to Great Actors
Bill Nighy
Try watching Love Actually and u see a slouching past-season rocker trying to make it big again in these bubble pop mtv music scene set during christmas.
Then he changed role for Underworld and become a dignified vampire, one of three to rule the century.
Now we'll watch him as Davy Jones in Pirates of the Caribbean II : Dead Man's Chest.
Hugo Weaving
Biggest impact for me is Mr Smith as the doppelganger opposite of Neo set out to destroy the so call messiah unconsciously initializing the whole apocalypse of the human world in Matrix.
Then he became the robe wearing flowy haired elven lord Elrond in Lord Of The Rings.
He could also act as an everyday role of Rex the Male Sheepdog in Babe : Pig in the City.
After that u see his bigger than life expression as V in V for Vendetta.
Alan Rickman
First seen him in Harry Potter : The Sorcerer's Stone as Professor Snape.
Then seen him in An Awfully Big Adventure starring as an enigmatic motor riding self-made actor who returned back to the theater which made him big and discovered he had a love child and committed suicide in the end.
And then he became the almost-adulterer husband in Love Actually.
After that u hav him as the downright suicidal depressed voice of Marvin the robot in The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy.
Tommy Lee Jones
Caught him in MIB as the cold sarcastic aloof with hint of humour undertone Agent K. My favourite character.
Then saw him as Two Face in Batman Forever, and as the undercover cheerleader coach in Man of the House.
Such different dish of comedic behaviour for a serious guy from San Saba, Texas.
Here I'll Pay a Tribute to my favourite enigmatic movie screen hero :
Ewan McGregor
First deep impression was as The Eye ; detective fascinated by the object of his investigation with tat poignant soundtrack I Wish You Love by Chrissie Hynde. Still looking for that soundtrack.
Then I saw him starred as the drug addict Renton in Trainspotting who in the end, got his piece of the world after much mishaps of friendships and heroin-whacked thrown at him. Great movie btw. Do watch the heroin-seduced scene of him in the toilet and his trial to recovery from drug addictions for the umpteenth time. Cant ever ever forget the initial narration of his piece of parody on "I choose not to choose life" in the starting of the movie.
Enjoyed him as the love hopeful Christian where he sang Come What May and the heart wrenching Le Tango de Roxanne in the freaky dramatish movie of the year Moulin Rouge set in Montmarte, Paris during the absinthe-induced-love revolution period.
Really gotta catch him in Big Fish some day.
Before I end my tribute, I'd like to say that the Tribute to Great Actresses has yet to be compiled, this list will grow along with me and do enjoy the sarcastic life-mocking parody below :
"Choose life.
Choose a job.
Choose a career.
Choose a family.
Choose a big f*cking television.
Choose washing machine, cars, compact disc player, and electric tin openers.
Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance.
Choose interest mortgage payments.
Choose a starter home.
Choose your friends.
Choose leisure wear and matching luggage.
Choose a three-piece suite and higher purchase a wide range of f*cking fabrics.
Choose D.I.Y and wondering who the f*ck you are on Sunday morning.
Choose sitting in a large couch watching mind-numbing spirit-crushing game shows stuffing f*cking junk food in your mouth.
Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pissing your last in your miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish f*cked-up brats you've sworn to replace yourself.
Choose your future, choose life.
But why would you want to do a thing like that?
I choose not to choose life.
I choose something else.
And the reasons?
There are no reasons.
Who needs reasons when you got heroin?" - Trainspotting
** Disclaimer : Choose wisely. **
posted by M.E. # 10:14 AM 0 Comments
Try watching Love Actually and u see a slouching past-season rocker trying to make it big again in these bubble pop mtv music scene set during christmas.
Then he changed role for Underworld and become a dignified vampire, one of three to rule the century.
Now we'll watch him as Davy Jones in Pirates of the Caribbean II : Dead Man's Chest.
Hugo Weaving
Biggest impact for me is Mr Smith as the doppelganger opposite of Neo set out to destroy the so call messiah unconsciously initializing the whole apocalypse of the human world in Matrix.
Then he became the robe wearing flowy haired elven lord Elrond in Lord Of The Rings.
He could also act as an everyday role of Rex the Male Sheepdog in Babe : Pig in the City.
After that u see his bigger than life expression as V in V for Vendetta.
Alan Rickman
First seen him in Harry Potter : The Sorcerer's Stone as Professor Snape.
Then seen him in An Awfully Big Adventure starring as an enigmatic motor riding self-made actor who returned back to the theater which made him big and discovered he had a love child and committed suicide in the end.
And then he became the almost-adulterer husband in Love Actually.
After that u hav him as the downright suicidal depressed voice of Marvin the robot in The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy.
Tommy Lee Jones
Caught him in MIB as the cold sarcastic aloof with hint of humour undertone Agent K. My favourite character.
Then saw him as Two Face in Batman Forever, and as the undercover cheerleader coach in Man of the House.
Such different dish of comedic behaviour for a serious guy from San Saba, Texas.
Here I'll Pay a Tribute to my favourite enigmatic movie screen hero :
Ewan McGregor
First deep impression was as The Eye ; detective fascinated by the object of his investigation with tat poignant soundtrack I Wish You Love by Chrissie Hynde. Still looking for that soundtrack.
Then I saw him starred as the drug addict Renton in Trainspotting who in the end, got his piece of the world after much mishaps of friendships and heroin-whacked thrown at him. Great movie btw. Do watch the heroin-seduced scene of him in the toilet and his trial to recovery from drug addictions for the umpteenth time. Cant ever ever forget the initial narration of his piece of parody on "I choose not to choose life" in the starting of the movie.
Enjoyed him as the love hopeful Christian where he sang Come What May and the heart wrenching Le Tango de Roxanne in the freaky dramatish movie of the year Moulin Rouge set in Montmarte, Paris during the absinthe-induced-love revolution period.
Really gotta catch him in Big Fish some day.
Before I end my tribute, I'd like to say that the Tribute to Great Actresses has yet to be compiled, this list will grow along with me and do enjoy the sarcastic life-mocking parody below :
Choose a job.
Choose a career.
Choose a family.
Choose a big f*cking television.
Choose washing machine, cars, compact disc player, and electric tin openers.
Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance.
Choose interest mortgage payments.
Choose a starter home.
Choose your friends.
Choose leisure wear and matching luggage.
Choose a three-piece suite and higher purchase a wide range of f*cking fabrics.
Choose D.I.Y and wondering who the f*ck you are on Sunday morning.
Choose sitting in a large couch watching mind-numbing spirit-crushing game shows stuffing f*cking junk food in your mouth.
Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pissing your last in your miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish f*cked-up brats you've sworn to replace yourself.
Choose your future, choose life.
But why would you want to do a thing like that?
I choose not to choose life.
I choose something else.
And the reasons?
There are no reasons.
Who needs reasons when you got heroin?" - Trainspotting
** Disclaimer : Choose wisely. **
posted by M.E. # 10:14 AM 0 Comments
Mae West : The Woman Who Has The Last Words
American film actress. Born 1892. Died 1980.
A woman to reckon with. For entertainment only.
Golden Quotes, use at will, but will not be responsible for the consequences :
When women go wrong, men go right after them.
Don't keep a man guessing too long - he's sure to find the answer somewhere else.
Good girls go to heaven, bad girls go everywhere.
I don't like myself, I'm crazy about myself.
I like a man who's good, but not too good - for the good die young, and I hate a dead one.
Once you're boned, what's left to create the illusion? Let 'em wonder. I never believed in giving them too much of me.
There are no good girls gone wrong - just bad girls found out.
Good sex is like good Bridge... If you don't have a good partner, you'd better have a good hand
I like two kinds of men: domestic and imported
Save a boyfriend for a rainy day, and another, in case it doesn't rain
Those who are easily shocked... should be shocked more often
Why don't you come on up and see me sometime.. when I've got nothin' on but the radio.
So many men, so little time.
Anything worth doing is worth doing slowly.
I only like two kinds of men: domestic and foreign.
I've been in more laps than a napkin.
I used to be Snow White, but I drifted.
He who hesitates is a damned fool.
She's the kind of girl who climbed the ladder of success wrong by wrong.
Once, during a trial in which she was accused of indecency on stage, the judge asked, "Miss West, are you trying to show contempt for this court?" She answered, "On the contrary, your Honor, I was doin' my best to conceal it."
I've been rich and I've been poor. Believe me, rich is better.
It's better to be looked over than overlooked.
Her Movie Lines :
From She Done Him Wrong
Cary Grant slaps cuffs on her.
MW: "Those absolutely necessary? You know, I wasn't born with them."
Grant: "All those men would have been a lot safer if you had."
MW: "I don't know . . . hands ain't everything."
Cary Grant: "You bad girl. . . ."
MW: "You'll find out. . . ."
From Night After Night
Woman: Goodness, what beautiful diamonds
MW: Goodness had nothing to do with it, dearie.
From Nightclub Act
"I feel like a million tonight. But one at a time."
From I'm No Angel
MW: "I had to shoot a lion once."
Lady: "Really? Was he mad?"
MW: "Well he wasn't exactly pleased about it."
Man: "You've been awfully kind ... I'll never forget you."
MW: "No one ever does."
Man: "Do you mind if I get personal?"
MW: "Go right ahead. I don't mind if you get familiar ..."
Man: "You were wonderful tonight."
MW: "I'm always wonderful at night."
Man: "Tonight I thought you were especially good."
MW: "When I'm good I'm very good, but when I'm bad I'm better."
Man: "If I could only trust you ..."
MW: "You can ... hundreds have."
Man: "I'm crazy about you."
MW: "I did my best to make you that way."
Man: "What are you thinking about?"
MW: "Same thing you are ..."
From Belle of the Nineties
Man: "Are you in town for good?"
MW: "I expect to be here, but not for good."
Man: "You're the kind of woman I've dreamed about ... always desired. I'm wild about you."
MW: "Some of the wildest men make the best pets."
MW: "Don't let a man put anything over on ya 'cept an umbrella."
From Goin' To Town
Man: "You ain't scared of me 'cause they say I'm a bad man?"
MW: "I'm a good woman for a bad man."
Judge: "Let me remind you to look out for crooks."
MW: "Let the crooks look out for themselves."
Man: "I'll look after the cattle and the men for you."
MW: "Just the cattle ... I'll take care of the men."
Man is shocked by Cleo's bold courtship, and warns her that she can't get a man with a gun.
MW: "Oh yea?"
MW: "We're intellectual opposites."
Ivan: "What do you mean?"
MW: "I'm intellectual and your opposite."
Ivan (bristling): "I'm an aristocrat, and the backbone of my family."
MW: "Your family ought to see a chiropractor."
Snob: "Speaking of relatives, Mrs. Colton, have your ancestors ever been traced?"
MW: "Why yes, but they were too smart - they couldn't trace 'em."
Misc
Man: Oh, Miss West, I've heard so much about you.
MW: Yeah, honey, but you can't prove a thing.
Man: I'd give half my life for just one kiss.
MW: Then kiss me twice.
Man: How do you do, Miss West?
MW: How do you do what?
Man: I've been doing a lot of thinking about you lately.
MW: You must be awful tired.
I tell u, with grandma like this, who needs television?!?
"if you don't have good stories to tell on your deathbed, what good was living?" - Sandra Bullock
A woman to reckon with. For entertainment only.
Golden Quotes, use at will, but will not be responsible for the consequences :
When women go wrong, men go right after them.
Don't keep a man guessing too long - he's sure to find the answer somewhere else.
Good girls go to heaven, bad girls go everywhere.
I don't like myself, I'm crazy about myself.
I like a man who's good, but not too good - for the good die young, and I hate a dead one.
Once you're boned, what's left to create the illusion? Let 'em wonder. I never believed in giving them too much of me.
There are no good girls gone wrong - just bad girls found out.
Good sex is like good Bridge... If you don't have a good partner, you'd better have a good hand
I like two kinds of men: domestic and imported
Save a boyfriend for a rainy day, and another, in case it doesn't rain
Those who are easily shocked... should be shocked more often
Why don't you come on up and see me sometime.. when I've got nothin' on but the radio.
So many men, so little time.
Anything worth doing is worth doing slowly.
I only like two kinds of men: domestic and foreign.
I've been in more laps than a napkin.
I used to be Snow White, but I drifted.
He who hesitates is a damned fool.
She's the kind of girl who climbed the ladder of success wrong by wrong.
Once, during a trial in which she was accused of indecency on stage, the judge asked, "Miss West, are you trying to show contempt for this court?" She answered, "On the contrary, your Honor, I was doin' my best to conceal it."
I've been rich and I've been poor. Believe me, rich is better.
It's better to be looked over than overlooked.
Her Movie Lines :
From She Done Him Wrong
Cary Grant slaps cuffs on her.
MW: "Those absolutely necessary? You know, I wasn't born with them."
Grant: "All those men would have been a lot safer if you had."
MW: "I don't know . . . hands ain't everything."
Cary Grant: "You bad girl. . . ."
MW: "You'll find out. . . ."
From Night After Night
Woman: Goodness, what beautiful diamonds
MW: Goodness had nothing to do with it, dearie.
From Nightclub Act
"I feel like a million tonight. But one at a time."
From I'm No Angel
MW: "I had to shoot a lion once."
Lady: "Really? Was he mad?"
MW: "Well he wasn't exactly pleased about it."
Man: "You've been awfully kind ... I'll never forget you."
MW: "No one ever does."
Man: "Do you mind if I get personal?"
MW: "Go right ahead. I don't mind if you get familiar ..."
Man: "You were wonderful tonight."
MW: "I'm always wonderful at night."
Man: "Tonight I thought you were especially good."
MW: "When I'm good I'm very good, but when I'm bad I'm better."
Man: "If I could only trust you ..."
MW: "You can ... hundreds have."
Man: "I'm crazy about you."
MW: "I did my best to make you that way."
Man: "What are you thinking about?"
MW: "Same thing you are ..."
From Belle of the Nineties
Man: "Are you in town for good?"
MW: "I expect to be here, but not for good."
Man: "You're the kind of woman I've dreamed about ... always desired. I'm wild about you."
MW: "Some of the wildest men make the best pets."
MW: "Don't let a man put anything over on ya 'cept an umbrella."
From Goin' To Town
Man: "You ain't scared of me 'cause they say I'm a bad man?"
MW: "I'm a good woman for a bad man."
Judge: "Let me remind you to look out for crooks."
MW: "Let the crooks look out for themselves."
Man: "I'll look after the cattle and the men for you."
MW: "Just the cattle ... I'll take care of the men."
Man is shocked by Cleo's bold courtship, and warns her that she can't get a man with a gun.
MW: "Oh yea?"
MW: "We're intellectual opposites."
Ivan: "What do you mean?"
MW: "I'm intellectual and your opposite."
Ivan (bristling): "I'm an aristocrat, and the backbone of my family."
MW: "Your family ought to see a chiropractor."
Snob: "Speaking of relatives, Mrs. Colton, have your ancestors ever been traced?"
MW: "Why yes, but they were too smart - they couldn't trace 'em."
Misc
Man: Oh, Miss West, I've heard so much about you.
MW: Yeah, honey, but you can't prove a thing.
Man: I'd give half my life for just one kiss.
MW: Then kiss me twice.
Man: How do you do, Miss West?
MW: How do you do what?
Man: I've been doing a lot of thinking about you lately.
MW: You must be awful tired.
I tell u, with grandma like this, who needs television?!?
"if you don't have good stories to tell on your deathbed, what good was living?" - Sandra Bullock
Labels: Quotes
posted by M.E. # 6:27 PM 1 Comments
Man With One Chopstick..Go Hungry
How stupid is the title? Apparently very.
Anyway, got lotsa stoopid quotes and advices on the line.
Here's some winners.
You should never test the depth of a river with both feet.
Virginity is like bubble, one prick all gone.
Behind every damsel in distress is a fire breathing dragon
Most people learn by observation, and there are the few who learn by experimentation. And then there are those who actually TOUCH the fire to see if it's really hot.
Don't think of yourself as an ugly person, just a beautiful monkey.
"Let us so live that when we come to die even the undertaker will be sorry." - Mark Twain
"Life's a bitch, but look at the alternative..." - Great Quote to Start the Day
Anyway, got lotsa stoopid quotes and advices on the line.
Here's some winners.
You should never test the depth of a river with both feet.
Virginity is like bubble, one prick all gone.
Behind every damsel in distress is a fire breathing dragon
Most people learn by observation, and there are the few who learn by experimentation. And then there are those who actually TOUCH the fire to see if it's really hot.
Don't think of yourself as an ugly person, just a beautiful monkey.
"Let us so live that when we come to die even the undertaker will be sorry." - Mark Twain
"Life's a bitch, but look at the alternative..." - Great Quote to Start the Day
Labels: Quotes
posted by M.E. # 6:26 PM 0 Comments
Worth-While
Yesterday before I left the office, I think I made somebody's day, who is not from the xy chromosom..with a hachet.
Sometimes a gal can feel like they r living at the bottom of the well. If any of my sis starts telling me that, they r gonna to get some spanking from me.
I cant help being optimistic, hopeful and wacky all at the same time while drowning in sinful regrets, it's in my gene. I know how the world works, I just chose to live my life the way I see it fit, which is out of the whole cookie cutter agenda. Some things are better ignored, neglected if it's hazardous to our health, body, soul and thoughts.
Like tis friend of mine, she was saying how she wished she was married and stuff. Havin somebody to take care of her.
B*lls.
All gals shuld learn how to take care of themselves before expecting others to do the same for them, if one doesnt even know how to love themselves, how does one know what they really worth or deserve?
Worth, we r talking about worth today.
In my opinion, everybody is worth a million bucks and more. With diamonds for teeth, silk for words and minks for hugs, now I'm exagerating. In real fact, we really are worth a million bucks and more; the kidney, cornea, heart, hair, placenta is worth a lot in the black market organ trade. And if u live in Borneo, there are some parts that accepts skull in exchange of paper barter.
** Please take care of ur kidneys, they are worth 20k pounds, that's equivalent to 160k in ringgit malaysia. Once broken, u r on a long list of waiting that is most likely not in favor of u **
Sometimes, ppl put themselves down too much. The world aint as bleak as it was in the WW2, even then, ppl havent stopped believing and hoping for a better world, so why should we who live in a better world be whining bout our meager earn boring life? Not a d*mn thing.
I'm harsh, cos it saves lotsa time. Sometimes I cant take it from meself, but I'm learning. Sometimes I need to sob in a little corner for weeks, but after that, I feel stronger cos I've faced it, accepted it and glorified in knowing that, hey, I bleed just like u n me, so what makes u or me so special except the fact that we r all different. Haha..now I've just contradicted meself. But, like wat I said, human needs to be tortured or put in the bottom of the well by other ppl in order to feel happy or blessed or grateful. I'm just one ungrateful b*tch (read : babe in total control of herself).
Anyway, worth.
That friend of mine is worth more than she thinks she does now.
Sometimes, some ppl just dun get it. Singlehood is so fleeting, so's youth. Just enjoy the moment while it's staying for the nite, we'll never know when it's passing us by one day.
And while we r enjoying it, somebody will learn to like that carefree laughter and infectious mood which exudes from us, so please, dun think that being a couple is all that matters and that it will solve all ur problem cos it doesnt. We are not living in some fairytale here, there's no happily ever after, heck, the writer of Snow White, Sleeping Beauty, Rapunzel and the likes merely like to write "And they live happily ever after.." cos they dun wanna hav the readers debat on who gets to sleep on which side of the bed, who gets the last choc chip butter cookie on the plate, who takes out the dogs for their walks, how many make ups they have, how they gonna live the rest of their lives, how many kids they get, will their kids end up just like them..well, u get my drift. I believe if ppl nowadays read those fairytales, even kids are goin to say b*llocks. But then, I'm one sarcastic b*tch.
*sigh..I'm so realistic at times that I scare meself to goosebumps literally. But I do know wat makes a person strikingly attractive; and it's tat glow one exudes from enjoying life so much that it simply shines from within. Or it's tat SKII product they were using lately. Hmm..
There's more to just being a couple, one gotta learn also to let go and let the other learn or grow.
Sometimes u see a couple, one of them giving out more and the other simply take it for granted. In the long run, somebody's gonna feel unappreaciated and started to think if this is all there is and start looking for alternatives somewhere. Dun say it wun happen, weird things hav happened before, like cows and sheeps hav fallen from the skies before. (read : beef and mutton)
Balance in a relationship is healthy, hav ur own crowd and groups of friends tat doesnt interlink with one another, tat way at least u hav a bit of a surprise for him/her at the end of the day when u share stories and experiences. And if it doesnt work out, heck, the friends are spared from the awkwardness of taking sides and u get to move on faster as they r most likely to take ur sides, but well, I'm being bias here.
Enjoy enjoy, I can never say this enough, cos at the end of the day, u feel powerful and alive that u took hold of that steering wheel of ur life. And tat look on ur face is gonna worth another million bucks tat nobody can take away, and tat's gonna make u precious enough that one day, somebody who likes tat look is gonna want to purchase it, at ur price. Somebody who is ur worth.
Worth, we are all worth a million bucks and more. Remember that.
"Positive thinking is like :
A little bird flies up in the sky; you look up and it shits in your eye...
But you don't mind and you don't cry; you thank God that cows don't fly..." - Plagiarise from The Emperor of China
Labels: Thoughts
posted by M.E. # 11:08 AM 1 Comments
Luck from the Pot and Other Thoughts
Had a potluck session at office yesterday. *Phew..lotsa food cant finish..colleagues taking several trips to the pantry to finish things up. My team leader was saying something about how the company's gals can eat. I'm not so privileged.
Enjoy yesterday of all days, cos it's carefree, though there are some issues unfinished, but to h*ll with it. I'm such a procrastinator..*sigh..
Colls saw me breathing onto the pc screen today before wiping it clean of thumbprints residue..what's wrong with using dehydrated saliva to clean the screentop? Everybody does it with apples..computer screen is just another notch high on the art of being a sloth. I'm no special case..just that ppl dun usually capture me doing it is all.
Last weekend I felt really overwhelmed. Talking seems to hav no solution, regret seems inching to suffocate me, there's only brainless actions from now onwards. Dreams gotta wait I guess, reality's claiming all the footage in my life now.
Years ago, I'd still say I'm naive and believing I can do it all, now, as life crept pass me, at nite I wonder wat it would feel like sharing some of the burden with some superhero (not superman pls) who can actually help me to solve all my problems. I'd call her Swiper, cos she'd wipe away all my problems away with her larger than life wiping-cloth. Sometimes when one's been standing upright for a period of time, the shoulder aches a lot.
Some ppl are lucky in a way that they can admit of being a romantic, a pampered child, embracing weaknesses. I'm learning to accept the latter senario, the middle I just dun hav the privilege, the former is totally out of my options. Sometimes denial in hope of attaining a particular trait that I really like takes a toll on me, I learn to adapt sure, but there's a voice within me tat just keeps on telling me that I can do better, do faster, while in reality, I'm way lagging behind. Sometimes I feel like a failure to meself, as I try to catch up with tat voice, like an relentless coach urging me on, to reach my never reaching potentials. It's always an inch away, it's always a foothold away, it's always a grasp away..I'm tired. I dun wanna reach my potential today.
Prior to yesterday, I cooked till past 1 am. I was preparing red bean soup, one of my specialties. I can only cook desserts, cos it's supposedly to be sweet, so no matter how many scoops of sugar I pour in, I'll never be wrong. I make one wicked jelly dessert of any content; peach, cincau, condensed milk, plain, fruity, wacky, indigo. Drowned half a packet of green beans for another green bean soup, didnt hav the blink left to cook it yesternite, hoping to do so today, who knows Thomas told me that it's starting to smell like plants and sprouting leaftlets. *sigh..there goes my green bean soup dessert down the sink.
"Give an inch, and they'd claim a pound." - Tribute to Obesity
Enjoy yesterday of all days, cos it's carefree, though there are some issues unfinished, but to h*ll with it. I'm such a procrastinator..*sigh..
Colls saw me breathing onto the pc screen today before wiping it clean of thumbprints residue..what's wrong with using dehydrated saliva to clean the screentop? Everybody does it with apples..computer screen is just another notch high on the art of being a sloth. I'm no special case..just that ppl dun usually capture me doing it is all.
Last weekend I felt really overwhelmed. Talking seems to hav no solution, regret seems inching to suffocate me, there's only brainless actions from now onwards. Dreams gotta wait I guess, reality's claiming all the footage in my life now.
Years ago, I'd still say I'm naive and believing I can do it all, now, as life crept pass me, at nite I wonder wat it would feel like sharing some of the burden with some superhero (not superman pls) who can actually help me to solve all my problems. I'd call her Swiper, cos she'd wipe away all my problems away with her larger than life wiping-cloth. Sometimes when one's been standing upright for a period of time, the shoulder aches a lot.
Some ppl are lucky in a way that they can admit of being a romantic, a pampered child, embracing weaknesses. I'm learning to accept the latter senario, the middle I just dun hav the privilege, the former is totally out of my options. Sometimes denial in hope of attaining a particular trait that I really like takes a toll on me, I learn to adapt sure, but there's a voice within me tat just keeps on telling me that I can do better, do faster, while in reality, I'm way lagging behind. Sometimes I feel like a failure to meself, as I try to catch up with tat voice, like an relentless coach urging me on, to reach my never reaching potentials. It's always an inch away, it's always a foothold away, it's always a grasp away..I'm tired. I dun wanna reach my potential today.
Prior to yesterday, I cooked till past 1 am. I was preparing red bean soup, one of my specialties. I can only cook desserts, cos it's supposedly to be sweet, so no matter how many scoops of sugar I pour in, I'll never be wrong. I make one wicked jelly dessert of any content; peach, cincau, condensed milk, plain, fruity, wacky, indigo. Drowned half a packet of green beans for another green bean soup, didnt hav the blink left to cook it yesternite, hoping to do so today, who knows Thomas told me that it's starting to smell like plants and sprouting leaftlets. *sigh..there goes my green bean soup dessert down the sink.
"Give an inch, and they'd claim a pound." - Tribute to Obesity
Labels: Thoughts
posted by M.E. # 9:12 AM 0 Comments
Grey Skies
Superman still s*ck.
Anyway, just planning to dissect me brain today.
Been reading and watching lately. Mostly fiction, movies and putting on me thinking cap whenever the ambience suits me.
All I'm gonna say is, it's hard doing something big without partner-in-crime.
"Away,
Away,
The kite flew up high..
Away,
Away,
Problems please don't come..
Away,
Away,
Fly away my wicked brain and never come back.."
Anyway, just planning to dissect me brain today.
Been reading and watching lately. Mostly fiction, movies and putting on me thinking cap whenever the ambience suits me.
All I'm gonna say is, it's hard doing something big without partner-in-crime.
"Away,
Away,
The kite flew up high..
Away,
Away,
Problems please don't come..
Away,
Away,
Fly away my wicked brain and never come back.."
Labels: Poignance
posted by M.E. # 9:06 AM 0 Comments
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